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Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
11:46 am	Birthday wishes I'm celebrating my birthday by skipping class. It'll probably work against me in the future, but honestly, who can face speech science and nuero bases on the day of their birth? Not this girl. Andrew bought me Vera Bradley flip-flops, glasses case, and nail file. They and he are pretty cute. Well, I have to go rest up. I've got the rest of the day to not do anything. Love ya! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 14th, 2009
2:02 am	Godot... Don't wait for Godot... he will never come... nothing ever happens... you are a douchebag... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2009
1:11 pm	Happy V=day! I love getting on here and spending a couple of hours reading and catching up on everybody's lives. I'll make an effort to read more often. My second semester of school is going by swimmingly. I have one class that is stressing me out, otherwise I'm enjoying the academic part. As for my clinic placements, I could NOT be happier. I have a client who stutters and one with articulation problems (from connected vocal folds at birth and a trach)at the east campus. I'm also at Le Bonheur this semester and I want to work there when I graduate...or at least somewhere comparable. The therapists there do mostly home visits, but I'm actually at the early intervention building all day on Tuesdays. I have four clients that are all around 2 and they are PRECIOUS. Two of them have trachs still, so I'm getting to learn all about what that entails. The coolest session of the day is feeding group. We have three to four kids with feeding difficulties, serious stuff, like being 2 and only eating yogurt. We follow a feeding hierarchy with seven foods each session. The goal is for them to eat, but to get there they get to play, going through each step until they are able to tolerate eating. It is a blast. We pretend crackers are cars and they go up our arm, vanilla pudding is lotion and we rub it in our face. My little kid blows me kisses every time before he leaves, I want to snatch him up! In V-Day related news, Andrew is taking me on a surprise trip tonight. I only asked that we would not go out to eat. Waiting for 2 hours before getting crappy service and bad food because the wait staff are effing worn out and pissed cause they have to be there is not my idea of a good time. Oh, Andrew is turning old-man 25 in March. I think we are going to have dinner and drinks in Jackson (to make things easier on travelers) on Feb 28th. If anyone wants to come hang out, let me know! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 1st, 2007
11:44 am	Heck yeah I am super pumped about this week. I like all things. I have a job!! I'm working at Lambuth Memorial for the summer program. Kids ages 5-12, y'all just get excited. Actually, I'm a little scared. I have to be with them for 8 hours, 5 days a week. Will they have fun with me? I hope so. It's no money, but I'm in it for the experience. We are going to see Spiderman 3 this friday, and while I'm excited I can't help but be a touch concerned. We were watching the second one last night and I'm pissed that the chick still needs to be saved. Yes, she does do the whole-saving the man from himself and a sad existance alone, bringing him back to humanity- kind of crap, but how often is the woman physically able to stand alone? Hardly ever. Once again women is nurturer and man is savior. I also don't appreciate how almost all super heroes (at least those that are mainstreamed today) MUST equate their special "powers" with some sort of sexuality. They move, strategize, and blast men away with their unique back-bending, coquetish winking, long legged seducing bodies. The male super hero is wholly masculine, even dorky peter parker suddenly transforms into this picture perfect male specimen, falling on the side of macho. When I asked Chip why there wasn't an equal female to Spider Man, he said there was, "Spider-girl." How depressing, an adolescent (of course). My mom is coming on monday and friday I'm going to the dentist to get fitted! I can NOT wait for the summer. I love the newness of it. I'm determined not to let anything small and stupid ruin it. I am going to bask in the solitude and read and play and love and not give a shit about anything else. No people but the ones that LOVE ME around. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 22nd, 2007
10:02 pm	At least read the poem at the bottom My body is tired. I feel the dirt of the day weighing me down. I need a warm bath. I wrote a combined paper today with Mary Margaret. Sound fun? Actually, it wasn't that bad. I was daunted at the task at first but I actually might like group papers. It went by tons faster. I finished editing my senior thesis and turned it in. It's due tomorrow and I've really been done with it for a week now. Proud? You shouldn't be, I thought it was due a week ago. I have been studying and will again start soon the studying for my last (hopefully last) physiological psychology test. If I do well on this I will not have to take the comprehensive final. I cooked a delicious meal tonight for Andrew (and me, of course). Tasty, tasty. Baked chicken and pasta with garlic toast, a salad with strawberries and almonds, and a strawberry pie for dessert. When summer starts rolling around I'd like to take a cooking class at the Painted Lady. Andrew would LOVE to take it. I feel a surprise coming on... In news of Andrew... he bought me some oh-so-cute plaid sandals from the Buckle. He is precious and I love him to pieces. In important news, if y'all could pray a little that this job with Boliver High School goes through I would be forever appreciative. How crazy wonderful is it that school is almost over? I'm breathing in the hot air and letting that warm lethargy pull my body down to grass, a blanket, a good book, and some lemonaide. Speaking of things that are good, if you read nothing else here...READ THIS!!!!! My favorite poem so far.... Decade When you came you were like red wine and honey, And the taste of you burnt my mouth with its sweetness. Now you are like morning bread, Smooth and pleasant. I hardly taste you at all for I know your savour, But I am completely nourished. -Amy Lowell I can taste all of it. I miss all of you. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 16th, 2007
7:40 pm	Oops I have my senior thesis due tomorrow. I'll start on it soon... I have play practice in a few minutes. I'm doing a one-act-directing class play. It's been fun but time consuming. I'm burnt out and ready for the summer. I quite Logans!! For real this time. I was so happy I might have skipped out of the parking lot. Andrew and I went to church and then a play yesterday at home. It was so much fun. I'll give a real update when the craziness of school is over. ps. I need a job. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 5th, 2007
11:27 pm	I've been really stressed out this past week. My papa's in the hospital and could use some prayers. Thanks and I love ya'll. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 26th, 2007
8:15 pm	Schedule and the such I'm taking a vote... Which class should I take 1. Creative Dance 2. Painting I have to take 12 hours each semester to graduate, but I think I'll throw in an extra class for fall to hedge my bets and have a little fun... My plan... Audiology Experimental Methods Social Statistics Elements of Lit Don't you think it would be a good idea to have a fun class mixed in? I had a really, really fun weekend. Lambuth movie night had me laughing so hard I almost cried, Emily did cry, I almost did. I was on duty all weekend (and tonight, boo) but I had lots of fantastic company. I am a little stressed out because I am a procrastinator. I have a paper due for Mrs. Hudacek tomorrow. I haven't started yet. Instead I have been whinning about it. That's so much better, right? Andrew is yelling at me to start my paper.... Lots of love. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
6:31 pm	I bought myself the sugarland CD. Andrew is always a little surprised when I pop in the country music. I'm from Savannah. It's in my blood. This is what ceramics has taught me... I love the feel of clay, but I need to watch my touch. Sometimes it's too harsh. To make something beautiful it takes patience and repeat trips. Sometimes you need lotion. When other people can make their heads tangible, it is the most fantastic feeling. It makes me feel good to just look at how cool other people are. Sometimes when your lot turns out a little bumpy, put on a decorative band....cause that's the way it was meant to be. ONLY TWO MORE WEEKS TO SPRING BREAK!!!!! (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 17th, 2007
2:11 pm	List of thoughts Crazy week. -Valentine's Day was pretty sad. I set myself up to think I was getting a puppy...and I didn't. And there is presently a commercial for adopt a dog on. I think I can hear my heart break every time it comes on. -I got my test back for Women in Lit...97! I'm back. -I get my phsyiological psy test back monday, and even if I did poorly, I can drop one test grade... -I am really enjoying "The Awakening" -I had lots of fun the past two nights. I got to hang out with people I haven't in a while and even watched a whole basketball game. -I don't think I could love Andrew any bit more. We had a great morning. -I really, really need to do homework now... but Broken Arrow with John Travolta is one...and it happens to be one of my favorite movies from my formative years -I get to see Hannibal Rising tonight!!!!! I'm sooo excited. It's the other half of my v-day present. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 12th, 2007
4:06 pm	Grumpy I just finished taking a test. I didn't really study for it enough. Why am I so apathetic now when it comes to class? I've always loved class, even taking tests. So why not now? I just want to be done. There might be one class that I"m excited about. I want to graduate this year. I really might look into graduating early. I know I'll miss out on a lot, but I HATE being here. What's wrong with me? The best I made on that test:B, the worst a C. I have never, never been ok with a B. I need some advice. I know this doesn't seem dire, but I've had 3 tests and 1 paper so far and I've not really studied for any of them and I don't give a shit what I've made on them. I guess it will come smack in my face soon. For right now, I just don't care. Love, (Is it spring of 08 yet?) Cinda (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 8th, 2007
6:05 pm	Thoughts I had a good trip home. I got to talk about some stuff and even if I don't feel assured, I feel better. I'm waiting on Andrew to get out of the shower so we can celebrate! I had dinner with my dad and lunch with my mom. Nice. Mom got my car fixed for me. I blew a bill over here to get it fixed right in Savannah. I will never trust Jackson mechanics again. The dude was WAY too pretty to be greasy. Not ligit. My hair is BLACK! and short. I have mixed feelings about it. I'm never able to sleep at home. I called Andrew last night at 2 to help stave off a panic attack. I have had a torrid past couple of days. I need to feel safe and warm and loved. I need to stop Listening Thinking In memories. In past. In black. Like my hair. I'm out. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
1:09 pm	Much better I am having a very pleasant morning. I enjoyed Dr. Wiemer's hearty chuckle and extremely liberal choice of semantics. I did an adaquate job on my diagnostics test. Finished my reading for my 2oclk. Am getting my hair done at 330! (Insert excitement here) All sing tonight... Then I'm going home for a bit tomorrow. I miss my mom. I am trying for a new job so everyone pray that things pan out. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
11:40 am	Bleh. I feel gross. I had an ok weekend. I worked Sat night and Sun morning. Sunday was basically a not for profit venture. I like giving my time to a place where the biggest payoff is I smell like peanuts...and make bleh money. I shouldn't complain too harshly. I made good money on Sat night. I have GOT to go Wed and take care of my car. It feels funny when I drive it. So that is where the money is going. I'm going to start working on Friday mornings too. That way I'll have a little extra cash coming in. Maybe I'll even save a little, who know? Friday is an exciting day! 6 months! I'm really excited. I have to work that morning, but I'll be off by 5 or so. Shouldn't be a big deal. I really, really want to go do something special. I'm sure we'll just go to Longhorns. I'm cool with that cause we have birthdays coming up. I'm pretty sure I know what I'm getting him for his. I wish spring break was here already. I don't care for this semester. I'm wishing away my youth. I'm ready for big girl things. I know that as soon as I get them I'll want to give them back. For now... I'm tired of school. I'm not getting that rush from learning something new. I just feel in a funk. I think I piss more and more people off everyday. I think I'm going to hole up in my room all day, minus class. I don't want to eat, that's how bad the funk is. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 16th, 2007
11:08 pm	I hate whatever format my dumb computer is putting LJ in. So I've had an interesting day... 1. Sr. Sem was not very interesting, but Dr. Wiemar's comments and laugh makes everything better. 2. Women in Lit was FUN. I love being involved in a class. We had some pretty good discussion about the writers, but we also had some extraneous left-field weirdness. Somehow a few of the classmates started debating the gender of God. Which stirred a debate on gender vs sex roles which prompted Jo to give a testimonial on why in her heart God is the Father, a male. I'm pretty sure that I was trying to learn about Julian of Norwich. I am really enjoying Mrs. Hudacek's (sp) teaching style. She has the type of voice I have a love-hate relationship with. It's so rich and articulate that it borders on irritation, but so good natured and genuine that I can't help but hang on. Some of the intro's are tedious, but I like it so far. 3. Ceramics. There might not be a better feeling than cold, wet, smooth delicious clay in your hands. Even they smell calms. I'm pretty sure that I added way too much water (I accidentally spilled some water in the pot when I was trying to smooth it) but I'm going tomorrow to check on it and work some more. 4. Dinner with Andrew then the Phi Mu fam. The girls went to Don Ponchos and had fun hanging out. I think my family is precious. I really am never short of amazement or humbleness when I'm with them. My callousness draws a sharp contrast to some of the practices of Emily, Beth, and Laurel. Tonight they reminded me of how to use patience and forgiveness. I really hope I can get that smart one day. 5. I have a really good idea of a RA program. More details if it pans out, but Chelsea thought it was great. That is a compliment. 5. Jacob, Andrew's brother, is coming to spend the night. That means I need to shower and go... 6. If you are my friend and have read this far, tell me something that lifted your spirits today! If you don't feel lifted....I love you! So now you do. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
6:13 pm	Where is everyone? I'm back in the apt. I'm also on duty. Boo. I'm glad to be back and can not wait for school to start. I have been waiting for classes for the past week. I can't help it. I had a really good break. I worked tons and am glad to have a little break from it. I'm going to start back in a week or so. I am also going to find a fitness class to take. I'm going hunting tomorrow. I think that if I have someone telling me what to do, I'll do it. If ANYONE wants to come with me...I'd love it. The coolest thing about the break? New Years... Why? He loves me. I enjoy telling the story, so ask me. Ok. I'm going to go be lazy. Love (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 31st, 2006
12:18 am	A Subject I'm tired. I just worked 9 hours. Andrew is being really nice to make me feel better. I had a good Christmas and got fun stuff. I am looking forward to the party here tomorrow night. I am also looking forward for school to start back. For the school stuff but mostly for the not working stuff. That 9 hours I worked today...no break. I smell bad. I'm going to go take a shower. I miss everyone, but I know that Sarah might come hang out this week, so I'm pretty pumped about that. I felt really sick today at work and cried a little bit. Just because I felt like crap. When you feel and look like crap you would not think that would be condusive to making bank BUT if you look pathetic enough you find out that people can be fantastic and really make an effort to take care of you. I had a couple of really great tables and coworkers tonight that helped restore my faith in human goodness. It's amazing. I haven't known Brian but half a year, and he's a complete and total smartass, but if I ever needed anything he would be there. Not because we are best friends or have some special connection, but because he knows that life is shit and only we can make it smell better. I wonder how many people that I have been close friends with in my life that have consistently made me feel like that... Probably not very many. I wonder if I've been the same to them... Probably not enough. I try to be the girl that you can count on, the one that will help and listen. I hope. I shower. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
9:31 pm	Brrr I'm here in Savannah! I have had a pretty good break thus far. I've worked everyday, but made enough to buy some presents. I wrapped the fams and Andrew's today. Andrew has a fantastic present: two tickets to see the Red hot chili peppers (for him and Jake) and a book on Metallica. I miss him a lot. I didn't miss him this much over Thanksgiving break. Dumb Andrew. I can't wait for Tuesday night. We had christmas with Granny today. I'm on Dwayne's new computer. Its really, really nice. I might be a touch green. He's now on facebook. Add him. I'm ready for Christmas day. I'm ready to see everyone. I'm also ready to head back to Jackson a little. I feel like Jackson is my home. I have never felt more happy. I am excited about next semester. I have a great schedule, even though I will have to work more. Such is the way of life. This was random and probably incoherent. Sorry bout that. Andrew's house is having a new years party!! Call me if you want details! I would like to have some of my girls there. Eric's bday was fun. We has a little bit of drama at the end, but it worked out for the best! Chip has really been fantastic since then. I like it when my man is assertive. I heart him. Everyone have a Merry Christmas! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 14th, 2006
10:49 pm	All shook up Bad Things: *not being able to go to the Nashville party *being broke *having to work over Christmas *having to take the academic profile test tomorrow at eight in the morning *knowing I will fail, even though I'll fail it with flair, the math portion on the academic profile test *having dumb fights with Andrew *having to see little phi mus get their little hearts stepped on by big, bad mean boys (spe's) *and the biggest bad thing of all...(it's a story) *Having my Speech Therapy Methods teacher tell me that: 1) I have an attitude (which I do with them, which I apologized for, which is not so much an attitude as self defense as will be explained later) 2) That I have been spoon-fed my other classes at Lambuth. That they are trying to prepare me for graduate school, that I should get used to it....but at the sime time telling me that... 3) I should have a back up option. That I probably will not get in to grad school. Even though I have great potential, I should make sure and look into other options. Like teaching. Like getting an associate degree. That people from Lambuth should not expect to get into speech graduate school. That "memphis IS a top ten school," and I should apply to as many others as possible. Because. The chance of getting in is small. Very small. So very, very, very small. *CRYING after leaving the classroom. *Feeling so inadaquate, so useless, so unsure of myself. Good Things: *Classes are over *After checking with all my teachers...finding out that I have made all A's. * Realizing that not only did I get an A in my methods class, but I made the highest grade in the class (with multiple test grades that were higher than 100), have a very good grasp on the material, learned soo much (from reading my book), and that dumb class is over!!!!! * Having Eric, my mom, Andrew and all the great people around me make me feel tons better. TONS. I love them *Getting to hang out with Andrew this christmas and getting a present. *Going to get dressed. I love you. I miss a lot of you. I am trying to do my best. Cinda (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 12th, 2006
11:16 am	Ugh My tummy hurts. I have a final in four hours. I am not ready for it. I can not wait for school to be DONE and OVER and OUT. I'm broke. I get to work over christmas. That's fun. Andrew knows what he is getting me for christmas, that is GREAT. I want a puppy. I will not be getting a puppy. I blame it on Canada. He used his harsh voice to tell me know, but then he said Pookie, so I fell back into my crush of him. I got to hang out with my little last night. That was something fantastic. I have been a bit mopey over some friend stuff for the past semester, but now I'm pretty sure I've come to peace.I feel the studying is soon upon me... it will not be brushed off...here it comes...in sickening waves... I'm overcome! (1 Comment |Comment on this)